Bachelor Number 2..... If you were taking a lady out to lunch.......

Of which he didnt. I got a last minute cancellation because he had a meeting with his Boss. Flick off or truth??? you decide.
Batchelor Number 3 who wasnt on my current list but someone I spoke to a few months ago who liked what I said about where I lived so much he decided to check the place out and loved it so much he bought a house in the neighbourhood........stalkerish or what?? Called last night to say he has moved in , got all settled in and would I like to catch up for a drink.....So thats tonights agenda.
A drink at the local pub at the local marina, because I live by a Marina of course.

Behind Door Number One...

Uh huh, met the first of the date list.......in the funniest situation ever but I have to give the guy kudos for having balls. Bear with me and you will see why.

On Monday night my girlfriend whom I have known since I was 13 and I went to see 'Train' in concert. As it was not far from my work we decided to meet at a local pub, have a bite and a wee drink and then head on over to the venue. I had purchased 3 tickets and while we thought we had a third person joining us,on the morning of the concert he bailed .....so anyway my friend and I are sitting at the pub chatting, we are both single and using the same dating site...........it was bound to happen wasnt it?!! We compared notes and discovered one of the guys is talking to both of us..........que hilarious laughter at the same lines he is using on both of us. Ok so having had a drink we decided this could be all a bit of time to have some fun.
Out comes the cell phone and said guy "Freddie" is called by moi, who chatted politely for a minute then passed the phone over to my friend who also chatted politely to a very embarrassed "Freddie" , then taking it further and having a spare ticket we say to him, spare ticket here do you want to see this concert with us tonight? He was a very brave, or stupid man because he said yes.
Anyhoo "Freddie" arrived at the pub and as planned beforehand both my friend and I stood up and gave him a peck on the cheek simultaneously, he went bright red and you could see the poor wee souls mind spinning. Much laughter by my friend and I and much blushing and stammering from Freddie ensued. Gotta give the man credit for even turning up, his flatmates had told him he was taking his life in his hands.
We all went to the concert and had a great time, poor "Freddie" looked slightly nervous all night however and he text us both on his way home with the same line yet again ...which made my friend and I laugh even harder at this poor guy as we were on our phones laughing about the whole scenario at the time. I think he had hoped during the course of the evening he was going to get to live some kind of male menage `a trois fantasy. Silly man!
Ok so my friend and I have no interest in "Freddie" at all but it made for a fun story and the concert rocked. I think I might wait for Pat Monahan to divorce his wife and come looking for me now anyway.

Brokering World Peace.

So, back on the dating scene am I. Had a couple if interesting ones, had a couple of truely awkward moments and had some who havent even got off the screen into real life and never will.
No keepers yet! Although one who seemed very sweet by daylight....we walked our dogs on the beach together and he held out his hand to help me over the slippery rocks, such a gentleman, turned into a somewhat beer swilling maniac by night on the second date and then offered the information he drinks too much and this has caused problems in past relationships...........oh great! Why send a cute guy who seems so sweet and lovely, and then slap that into the mix.....thanks universe!!!!!!!
One would think that if you know you do it, and it does get in the way, you would make some effort to STOP!!!

Right now this is what is on offer for me in the way of "lets meet!!" over the next week or so.....

1. A Dr from Jordan.
2. A sweet looking Argentinian Boy who is 17 yrs younger than me. Roarrrr @ me a cougar,too funny
3. An English lad
4. One who says he is Persian but I think he's Indian , whatever!!
5. A Frenchman who is 5 years younger than me....(really this cougar thing is a bit much)
6. An Aussie Bloke (good keen men Aussies) lol
7. A dutch guy (not going to happen)
8. A good old hometown kiwi boy 5 years younger than me (again whats with the young ones wanting to meet me???)

And well I thought maybe I could start a new UN with this lot and broker world peace as an outcome.
So this is me teeing up my social calendar for the next week or so. I havent been this busy since I was ....well much much younger than I am now lol.

All this means I am going to be very coffee'd or in my case tea'd or Wined out by the end of this round.
Still I must not complain when World Peace is at stake. Yeah!

Cinderella wants her Slipper back

Oh My oh my. Senior school ball time over the weekend. My gorgeous son wanted to wear all black and picked out the fabric for mum to make his tie, then it was all "oh mum I need one of those matching pocket hankie thingy's too please. So ok Damn! suit hire is expensive at School Ball time, and there was new shirt, socks and dress shoes of course because when your son lives in jandals , sneakers or soccerboots there is just no need for swanky smart shoes. I owe my wallet an IOU.

So anyway there is Benny all gussied up and looking every bit his age and more and there's mum in the corner with a tear in her eye cause her little man isnt anymore but boy oh boy! he looked so smart.

Normally I dont get to see this, I get the smelly manky soccer gear, jeans that should have been washed a month ago and a bedroom that is a swamphole. To see him all dressed up was lovely. To see the photos taken on the night of all the fun and revellry, even better. Until I got to the 'afterball' party photos. Oh me Oh my.... mum sat there and said not a thing...........I was too damn busy scrapping my jaw off the floor lol. Still it wasnt so bad and he is after all 17 and a boy and there are some things a mum just doesnt need to be so aware of no? ANyway here is Ben looking very smart, and here is on the way to the afterball function.....take note this is on the way to, you dont want to see the pictures from the actual event itself. lol.

All Sunshine and Happiness and little Babies

I went to a Naming Ceremony yesterday. Good friends who live across the road. Their first child and she is the most happy, adorable wee thing. As I stood there listening to Emma's parents pledge their love and support for the rest of their lives it struck me that they were embarking on a journey I started 17 years ago when my son Ben was born. I drifted back to the first moment I held my son after a long and difficult birth that caused some amount of panic at the maternity wing of the hospital and my eyes teared up because I can remember so vividly the awe and wonder and overwelming love I had for this tiny wee thing I held. Right there listening to my friends and watching the people around them who had children at the ceremony, I saw every single Mum and Dad either reach out and put a hand on their child or seek them out with a look that was filled so obviously with the crystal clear memory of their arrival. I watched as Mums and Dads glanced at each other and shared a secret smile, both remembering that magical moment in their lives and I saw Dads take hold of Mums hands and put their arms protectively around their partners waists. I watched a group of people for a moment in time, all flash back to a moment in their lives when it all began for them. The journey of parenthood.
17 years later for me and I have a son who every day in his life does me proud. He works hard to achieve his goals and has the determination and drive to succeed at whatever he desires.
As any parent knows it's not a path of roses and honey but its a path that exceeds all others in satisfaction. Every step they take, every achievement they have and every slip up they make is woven into our hearts with a gossamer thread that is so strong it will never break. Every heartbreak and dissapointment they suffer, we feel it. They are an individual but an intangible extension of us.
So 17 years on my darling son, my heart still bursts with love for you, and although we dont always agree on things I love the adult you are becoming and see in you a young man who takes his responsibilities seriously and who will learn by any mistakes made. I am proud of you and of who you are. You are to me simply the best person in the world!
I still want you to clean up that swamp hole you call a bedroom!!
I love you Ben.

Just walk away

Thats what I say, let it go, just walk away. Whenever someone tries to wind me up and upset me. I say it to myself but dont always manage to walk away quick enough to be honest, but this time, this time I think I have done it, I closed a door yesterday which has let the sunshine back into my life after so many months of black clouds looming. It felt good to do it, I dont know why I didnt do it sooner to be honest. Hindsight is a wonderful thing. I spoke words and wrote down what I needed to to purge myself of the last vestiges of the insidious thing that dwelled in my person and I let go. I watched it float away like a silk scarf floating down a cliff face. It wasnt a harsh tear or a drop it was a gentle relaxed floating, moving beyond my fingertips with no hope of clawing it back and clinging to the pain a little bit longer wrapping the misery around me like a blanket. It went peacefully leaving me feeling good and light.
I am back. That which suffocated me is gone now. My smile is real and no longer hides constant worry, its real.
This past weekend being the Autumn Equinox was a good time to clear out that which no longer serves a purpose. A celebration to spring clean the heart and soul and welcome balance back into my life.
A saying I read. ' I now know that for every dark night of the soul a new sunrise will be there in the morning' Fitting I feel.

2010 is going to be a great year. Yes it started on a less than wonderful note but already skies have cleared.

This year I have holidays booked both local and overseas, some of them big trips of which I am really looking forward to. I look forward to them all in fact. I love getting away and sharing the holidays with friends is the best fun ever.

What are your plans for the year? What is 2010 shaping up to be like for you?

weight for me

It's been a long stretch in between blogs so I have much of nothing to write about.
a) That man and I broke up, or rather I came home from work one day and he had packed his things and moved out not telling me is was going to happen. I was gutted and cried for a month, it was only a month ago and I still hurt like hell to be honest.
b) I took up Tennis only to have my tendonitis return and put a stop to it, buggar it all!!
c) I have rejoined Jenny Craig as I had put on all the weight I lost last year.

So now the rant...
That man well the less said the better, apparently I didnt do what he wanted all the time so that made me stubborn and I was after his money as well so he decided he had to move out without talking to me about it but still wants to remain friends and go out together occasionally. Now I dont know whether the go out together occasionally means lets hang or lets do the wild thing now and then when he feels like it and just be friends with benefits. Either way I am disinclined to do either. Why the Fek would I want to remain friends with someone who without so much as a goodbye walked away from what I thought was something fairly good? As for being after his money??? well thats laughable because I have my own and manage rather nicely and never had any intention of looking sideways at his. It was never even considered. I have dated plenty of blokes who earn less than me and it doesnt bother me, so long as they can hold their own and dont want propping up its not an issue. Ahh well time heals apparently...still sucks though and it hurt a lot having this happen but I guess there is nothing I can do about it, it was his choice to do it.
One positive is my house now stays tidy and has lost its cluttered overstuffed look and housework is a breeze.

Now to my weight....last year I lost 8kg and was doing well until I stopped the JC thing and didnt watch what I was doing and *shbang!!* there it all is back again.
SO now I am back at my weekly meeting and trying to get rid of it all again. 2kg gone in my first week but the second week has got off to a very bad start to be honest and now I am going to have to pull some serious "careful what I eat' manouvres to get back on track and have a loss this week. This is going to be hard as I have two days down in Wellington away from home this week which means I dont have my JC food on hand so will have to really be careful about what goes in the gob.
Does anyone else who reads this diet? have you had success? I need the inspiration so please share your story if you will.
And how do you mend a slight tear in the cardiovascular region? I mean its not heartbreak but its definate damage to that area.