Update and onwards, keep moving forward.

Ok neither of the job's I was looking at panned out. It wasnt meant to be I guess. I am happy enough working at the tertiary training institue where I am at the moment and they are making noises about me getting permanent work here. I could cope with that. Less money but a lot less stress and so far the people are great to work with. One in particular I have worked with before, I have known her since we were at highschool and we have not only worked together in the past but flatted together and travelled together so it seems as we joked over coffee/tea at lunchtime that we seem to be going the full circle. We also live around the corner from eachother so now we also carpool to work... funny old world really.

I am enjoying getting up an hour later as I dont have the travel I did and with winter closing in the extra snoozetime encased in the warmth of my bed appeals to me greatly, although I keep telling myself to use at least half of it to go walking.

Dynamo Guy said the 'L' word to me over the weekend, a never before uttered word in our relationship but it didnt scare me and the context was so casual and it was slipped in so sneakily that it took me by surprise. It wasnt an 'I love you" declaration, it was uttered during the course of a conversation about clogged drains of all things...........ok the story goes like this....DG was showering and as is his nature to clean he decided to take the gully trap out of the shower base and clean it as the shower didnt seem to be draining very quickly. It was full of long brown hair...ugh, yuck and gross...mine! He asked me to come and identify the species of creature he found in the shower drain and when I asked if it was my hair and should I be worried his reply was yes if it were him and he found this amount of hair lying around unattached to his head he would have serious concerns. I moult when stressed. Anyway at my exclaimation I was probably going bald he came up and put his arms around me and said sweetly

"It's alright babe I will still love you when you are bald " blah

charming no?

My reply was "well thats good cause I am not going to stick around to mash your food and change your old man diaper for you otherwise"

While it would take a lot for him to declared the L thing outright I get the feeling he is trying to let me know he does without actually saying it directly.

I feel secure and looked after and L'd so he doesnt need to say it outright because his actions scream it to me and it's good this way because it's not something I say easily either.

I am inherently suspicious of guys who say it all the time and especially when they expect the standard "I do too" reply. Reeks of insecurity to me.

PS DG has got hisself a new toy, he's been eyeing one up since Christmas time and now he has purchased the above beastie. Mine is the old red one which looks so OLD and SLOW next to his super duper fast quick lightening machine lol.