Time Warp.

So 4 years huh? 4 years since I wrote a piece for my blog. It seems way too long but then life gets so busy I guess.

I had to go back and see where I was 4 yrs ago.......so much living in such a small amount of time.

My Benniboy is nearly 23 now and in the last year of his electrical apprenticeship....after doing 2 years at University on an Applied Science Degree and deciding he hated it and dropping out that is.....(not a happy muma) I am thankful that he has settled down and found his niche for now....I say for now because he is like his Mum, a bit of a restless spirit.

Me? well I have been having adventures in life and doing what I do best.....living. Waking up breathing everyday and just being thankful for that on some days really.

I am 50 now, and some days it seems like time has disappeared on me and I wonder where it went, and I think 'no I still have so much more to do, can I please have some back'.  I have moved out of my beautiful little house by the sea. I finished renovating it and have rented it out to some friends with a young family. I was on my own and didnt need it as much as they needed a home. I handed them the keys after packing up my most personal stuff and left them with a fully furnished home including crockery cuttlery bedding towels,  everything but my beloved books, family photos and my personal bedroom furniture pretty much.  I moved into a house as a boarder..a strange thing to do at my age but the people are friends of mine so not so bad. I went from my own three bedroom house that I lived in by myself to condensing my world into a bedroom. Everything is packed up, boxed up and sitting in the garage back out at the house. It was a lesson in what I don't need and how to survive without my worldly possessions.  When the only space you have is a bedroom of smallish proportions you learn to prioritise what means most to you.

I didnt give up my house lightly, I loved it, I loved that the renos were done and it looked how I wanted it to but I was in a not so good place after things went wrong with 'that guy I dated for 3 1/2 yrs'  he turned out to be something else.......something that after entering my house 6 months after the relationship ended and doing despicable things required a tresspass order to be told what he had done was not ok and not acceptable. I have never had to take those steps before and never had an intruder before. My home was my sanctuary, it was where I shut out the world and was at peace. My two little dogs and I were happy there until then..I no longer felt safe and my home was tainted. I doubt I will ever live in that house again now, so much has changed in the last 14 months since I left there. I still love the house and do miss it but life is moving in a different direction now......a more southerly direction

Footnote for the curious* That Guy!! it was discovered he had a profile on a couple of internet sites that said he was in an open relationship and looking for entertainment, this and a couple of other very disturbing developments in his thought processes of what was acceptable in a relationship caused the breakdown of the relationship*

Anyhoo here I am still kicking along and living a good life.

Go-Betty