Thats what I say, let it go, just walk away. Whenever someone tries to wind me up and upset me. I say it to myself but dont always manage to walk away quick enough to be honest, but this time, this time I think I have done it, I closed a door yesterday which has let the sunshine back into my life after so many months of black clouds looming. It felt good to do it, I dont know why I didnt do it sooner to be honest. Hindsight is a wonderful thing. I spoke words and wrote down what I needed to to purge myself of the last vestiges of the insidious thing that dwelled in my person and I let go. I watched it float away like a silk scarf floating down a cliff face. It wasnt a harsh tear or a drop it was a gentle relaxed floating, moving beyond my fingertips with no hope of clawing it back and clinging to the pain a little bit longer wrapping the misery around me like a blanket. It went peacefully leaving me feeling good and light.
I am back. That which suffocated me is gone now. My smile is real and no longer hides constant worry, its real.
This past weekend being the Autumn Equinox was a good time to clear out that which no longer serves a purpose. A celebration to spring clean the heart and soul and welcome balance back into my life.
A saying I read. ' I now know that for every dark night of the soul a new sunrise will be there in the morning' Fitting I feel.
2010 is going to be a great year. Yes it started on a less than wonderful note but already skies have cleared.
This year I have holidays booked both local and overseas, some of them big trips of which I am really looking forward to. I look forward to them all in fact. I love getting away and sharing the holidays with friends is the best fun ever.
What are your plans for the year? What is 2010 shaping up to be like for you?
