Well yet another week rocks on past and now its blardy Friday....the sun is shining into my office and I am contentedly dozing like a cat in the sun. All this and its only lunchtime.
I have a haphazard weekend lined up that consists of watching rugby and drinking copious amounts at the local Boat Club tonight, carting my adorable teenage son to soccer tomorrow probably with a bitch of a hangover and trying to avoid doing housework. I can never avoid it, something in me just keeps niggling away until I do it......I think it's mum's spirit nagging me.
Unless I can get the girls on a roll for tomorrow night it may be down to " the club" again on Saturday. All in all not terribly exciting or out of the norm.
This in itself is a problem because I have become so complacent about going to "The Club" as its known by the locals that I very rarely venture out into the big wide world or city as the case may be.
All this is not conducive to me meeting the man of my dreams because I live in a small seaside "town" for want of a better description. Now, the big town is only a 20 min drive away but it does not beckon me at all unless my team of very supportive very determined girlfriends can inspire some kind of enthusiam in me to meet them in "town" . Apparently I need to get out of the village and expand my horizons.........everything else about me is expanding in middleage so why not my horizons as well.
As far as meeting the man of my dreams goes.........well I think he lives up in the far north of Alaska or somewhere equally as far from me because at 43 if I havent spied any sign of him yet or located even the slightest hint he may exist I am not entirely sure that he is not just a figment of my over active, over chocolated imagination.
Have a great weekend all.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Another Thursday
Another Thursday rocks around. I kinda like Thursday because they bring on the anticipation of Friday.
It been a busy week and one thats not all been good.
You know how sometimes something will happen that causes you to have totally irrational feelings and battle with inner demons even though you know what you are feeling is dumb. Well I had one of those weeks. I hate feeling negative about things. It's such a waste of energy I think.
After my Mum died 13 years ago my older sister and her husband bought mums place. It was kind of nice cause it kept it in the family and I could still go out there and see mum in all the little things around the place.
Well a year ago my older sister moved to Australia where my little sister lives too and they rented out Mums little farmlet. Now, I know they bought it and it was theirs but I always have and always will think of it as Mum's place.
I found out this week that its up for sale ...........that makes me feel sad.
a) That I found out by accident , I kinda think it would have been nice if they had told me they were going to sell it ( I know, I know, I understand its really none of my business but still, I have an emotional attachment to the place)
b) That its not going to be Mum's place anymore and I wont get the opportunity to go out there and wander around the paddocks and say goodbye to everything and in a way to Mum as well.
I have a strange family, I love my sisters dearly but we dont speak often. They both live overseas. Everyone is too tied up with their own worlds and we cant always agree on things and I seem to not quite conform to their ideas of how I should be. ( I know both my sisters think I am completely strange) which causes any number of long periods of no contact, which incidently I detest.
Mum and Dad both died a long time ago now, seperate incidents. My Dad 24 years ago when I was 19 and my Mum 13 years ago when I was 31. So yeah I guess my parents were the glue that held us all together. Once they were both gone the family drifted apart as there was no common factor anymore.
Anyway all of these things compounded this week to cause me some demons and some totally negative irrational feelings. I need to say goodbye and just " build a bridge and get over it" as a dear friend would say to me.
It been a busy week and one thats not all been good.
You know how sometimes something will happen that causes you to have totally irrational feelings and battle with inner demons even though you know what you are feeling is dumb. Well I had one of those weeks. I hate feeling negative about things. It's such a waste of energy I think.
After my Mum died 13 years ago my older sister and her husband bought mums place. It was kind of nice cause it kept it in the family and I could still go out there and see mum in all the little things around the place.
Well a year ago my older sister moved to Australia where my little sister lives too and they rented out Mums little farmlet. Now, I know they bought it and it was theirs but I always have and always will think of it as Mum's place.
I found out this week that its up for sale ...........that makes me feel sad.
a) That I found out by accident , I kinda think it would have been nice if they had told me they were going to sell it ( I know, I know, I understand its really none of my business but still, I have an emotional attachment to the place)
b) That its not going to be Mum's place anymore and I wont get the opportunity to go out there and wander around the paddocks and say goodbye to everything and in a way to Mum as well.
I have a strange family, I love my sisters dearly but we dont speak often. They both live overseas. Everyone is too tied up with their own worlds and we cant always agree on things and I seem to not quite conform to their ideas of how I should be. ( I know both my sisters think I am completely strange) which causes any number of long periods of no contact, which incidently I detest.
Mum and Dad both died a long time ago now, seperate incidents. My Dad 24 years ago when I was 19 and my Mum 13 years ago when I was 31. So yeah I guess my parents were the glue that held us all together. Once they were both gone the family drifted apart as there was no common factor anymore.
Anyway all of these things compounded this week to cause me some demons and some totally negative irrational feelings. I need to say goodbye and just " build a bridge and get over it" as a dear friend would say to me.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Yay Thursday
And its Easter weekend which means 4 days off work to go fishing and play with the boat and drink and eat chocolate .....not all necessarily in that order I might add.
Well I survived the week after having a hateful Monday and have pretty much got everything done without too many stuff ups or idly looking out the window beside my desk.
I guess I am lucky I have a window to look out......and its a biggie, huge window with a very picturesque view of the town I work in. Lots of trees and parks and old villa type houses so its nice.
I am sitting here in the sun almost falling asleep its so toasty and warm and its thursday afternoon before a long weekend and nobody seems to be moving around much in the office but I bloody bet once 5pm ticks over there will be an almighty stampede for the doors. Like women at a sale at the mall, pushing and shoving and hair pulling to get to the doors, and thats just the Blokes !!
Well I survived the week after having a hateful Monday and have pretty much got everything done without too many stuff ups or idly looking out the window beside my desk.
I guess I am lucky I have a window to look out......and its a biggie, huge window with a very picturesque view of the town I work in. Lots of trees and parks and old villa type houses so its nice.
I am sitting here in the sun almost falling asleep its so toasty and warm and its thursday afternoon before a long weekend and nobody seems to be moving around much in the office but I bloody bet once 5pm ticks over there will be an almighty stampede for the doors. Like women at a sale at the mall, pushing and shoving and hair pulling to get to the doors, and thats just the Blokes !!
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Monday Bloody Monday
I hate Monday, along with probably half the population of the world I should imagine.
I hate dragging my ass out of bed to come to work after having a great weekend that continued into Sunday night even though I told myself it wouldnt.
I hate going to work and smiling and being cheerful and reliving my wonderful weekend for the benefit of others just so I can torment myself with the fact I am at work once again.
Now dont get me wrong I actually really enjoy my job, I just hate Mondays.
Daylight saving finshed this weekend so I worked like a madwoman pruning hedges and trees and chopping things yesterday and now today I ache everywhere. I am not the fittest person around and so when I get these occasional spurts of ridiculous energy and go mad doing this sort of thing I suffer, oh man do I suffer.
On a better note, its a short week because of easter and I get a four day weekend this coming weekend . Holiday on Friday and holiday on Monday, which effectively makes next Tuesday a surrogate Monday and I will probably hate that too come to think of it lol.
One good thing is my little sister is coming over from Australia for a few days visit. Well not to visit me , they have a wedding to attend so I will be more of periferal thing really but it will be nice to see her.
Easter weekend also means I will hopefully at least two days fishing in so I can restock the freezer as it is fish-less at present.
Anyway Monday still sucks but I can cope with that so long as the weekends are good.
I hate dragging my ass out of bed to come to work after having a great weekend that continued into Sunday night even though I told myself it wouldnt.
I hate going to work and smiling and being cheerful and reliving my wonderful weekend for the benefit of others just so I can torment myself with the fact I am at work once again.
Now dont get me wrong I actually really enjoy my job, I just hate Mondays.
Daylight saving finshed this weekend so I worked like a madwoman pruning hedges and trees and chopping things yesterday and now today I ache everywhere. I am not the fittest person around and so when I get these occasional spurts of ridiculous energy and go mad doing this sort of thing I suffer, oh man do I suffer.
On a better note, its a short week because of easter and I get a four day weekend this coming weekend . Holiday on Friday and holiday on Monday, which effectively makes next Tuesday a surrogate Monday and I will probably hate that too come to think of it lol.
One good thing is my little sister is coming over from Australia for a few days visit. Well not to visit me , they have a wedding to attend so I will be more of periferal thing really but it will be nice to see her.
Easter weekend also means I will hopefully at least two days fishing in so I can restock the freezer as it is fish-less at present.
Anyway Monday still sucks but I can cope with that so long as the weekends are good.
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